What if?

I absolutely have no idea what I am going to write about today. I kind of thought it was cool that I would write without a mental picture of what words I wanted to bestow upon my unsuspecting readers. Where shall start? Oh yes! Now I have the semi-perfect story.

I started a new job a couple of weeks ago and, as with all new locations, I had to find my way there using good old Google maps (I love Apple but would NEVER use their maps). After getting off the train, I knew it would take me 15 minutes to walk to the said location but those were the longest 15 minutes of my life. I kept saying to myself “what if I’m taking the wrong route and find out I’m in another part of the city…”. Needless to say, the what ifs were endless.

I finally got to my destination and triumphantly saw the name of my new company on the building. I cannot describe the joy I felt (mainly because I got there on time and definitely did not take the wrong route).

This made me realise that sometimes even when we know that we’ll be fine as we go through stuff in life, we are still jittery. I reckon even if God himself came down with all His glory and told us we would get what we want, our hearts would be sort of calm and we would still wonder…what if? (Yay, now I have a title for this write up).

I have finally learned that worrying is not the issue. No matter how perfect you are, one would still worry. I think the issue is worrying, conjuring up fears and giving into the fears. Worry is the first stage in that slippery slope. So what I do now when I find myself worrying is to write down what I am worried about. Figure out if there is anything I can do about it…if I can do something about it, then why am I worried?

On the other hand, if I can’t do anything about it, then why am I worried? At that point, I tear up my worries (ha ha…in your face worry!) and then talk to someone about it. We really do underestimate the power of sharing our fears and worries with like minded people. So far, it has worked for me and although I do not worry less, my heart is not as troubled as it was 3 months ago.

In unrelated news, it is heart for the house in my church this weekend and I am so excited to be part of everything that’s happening. It is going to be fantastic and if you are in Central London this weekend, send me a message (and I would take you out for lunch, dinner…whatever!).

Looking forward to my lazy Saturday today! Yay!!! Phineas and Ferb marathon people!

Have a fabulous day people!


Ps. I apologise for the lack of pictures. Apple and O2 have conspired against me and my phone is not yet with me. Maybe another 5 weeks or so. Sigh. I shall survive.


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